9TwoFly

It’s crazy because it’s so sane.

It ended.

Logically, I say things like these never last, so why was my situation different?

Blind.

Ah, it makes sense now. I couldn’t see.

I didn’t apply the same standards to me as I give to others.

Hypocritical? I think so.

No, let me rephrase that, I know so.

I wasn’t intentionally that way though,

It’s just, the application of standards we set are sometimes impossible to hold.

I always said they never last, but I felt mine would never end.

All along, I couldn’t come to grips with the end in anything though.

I mean, Finality was so farfetched; I pegged it as more theoretical than actual.

Only for me though; finality was real for everyone else, except me.

Took me two whole years accept to what I had whole-heartedly rejected.

I just couldn’t grasp it before, but I do now.

I believe it’s to the detriment of me because now I expect everything to be temporary.

That in turn makes me ensure that all things are expendable.

I once thought forever was true, but now I feel permanence is a myth.

I guess this is all a part of the mental growth of me.

It’s the unfortunate evolution of my mind.

-Dame