Where we at with this thing ma? I’m diggin’ you hard like.
But the last chick left my heart cold, its still recovering from frostbite.
I was wide open, I’m talkin vulnerable all-right.
When it hurts like that, you adjust and keep guard tight.
I was a student of her emotions, studied hard to pass all my classes.
Making sure I fully understood every single part of passion.
Came prepared for instruction, ready in every form and fashion.
Enrolled in this love class, but unfortunately our spark was absent.
Basically things got iLL and then we both became distraught.
Those hard times come and go but separation wasn’t in my realm of smarts.
I mean I got real lucky, the attention of her I had finally caught.
Cause I used to beg God to be one of the passengers on her train of thought.
I won’t say I’m not to blame, I still feel I played my hand dumb.
Cause I told her she could go, but didn’t think that she would run.
No entertainment in this explaining, nah ma, its no fun.
Cause when you can’t get in touch with who you felt most you liable to go numb.
You see I never had one that serious before she came along,
and to be honest I thought I’d never have one that serious after.
Humble beginnings, but miserable ending in disaster.
I was forced to crop her out of this picture of my future my mind had captured.
All situations you enter will rightfully have their up and downs,
But I never thought I’d meet the day that ole girl wasn’t around.
I’d do a lot of things differently if I knew then what I know now.
Cause when your so deeply in love, all your focused on is how not to drown.
Took time to find that perfect partner, remember I thought that she would never come.
But patience is virture and eventually cupid’s work was done.
So now that’s why I make sure I don’t shoot at everyone
Cause when Ms. Right does come, I don’t wanna be left holding an empty gun.
Ma, I don’t wanna waste on you all the love that I could supply.
Mental first approach, no fuck hello and hug good-bye.
We gotta let each other breathe and relish in our emotional high
Smothering one another would only cause potential love to die.
I kinda feel debilitated and all of my emotions distorted.
Like my heart was passively torn and every thing I felt contorted.
Wish I chuck the space of my brain that she still occupies to orbit.
More than difficult to give your all to you next when your last girl left with a portion.
Right now your a lady that really does interest me.
But its unfair because I still define her as meant for me.
So I might shovel your ways and really dig what we can be.
But I refuse to enter something with you, if she hasn’t exited me mentally.